The more frustrated I get, the more stress I feel. The more stressed I am, the more anxious I become. As my anxiety levels rise, the less confidence I have in myself, and my self-confidence is very low at the best of times. The less confident I become, the more depressed I become, the ridiculous any idea of self-worth becomes.
You can see how I’ve discovered a genuine perpetual motion machine here.
I don’t know where to start.
On top of that I compound these problems with several horrible mechanisms:
- I want instant results.
- I prevaricate (so many things need done, where to start, start nothing).
- I reach an initial goal then abandon.
One thing at a time.
– Break down each task to subtasks and handle all prep first and in the right order.
– Study, practice & take measured risks to assess progress *
– Reflection before & after action is important *
– “make time” rather than “find time” *
So how can I improve? Where do I start?
- I can make time for all the things I want to do.
- I can get up earlier to be at the gym for 8:30am.
- I can enable this by getting to bed and ready to sleep by midnight.
- When I can I will cycle to work.
- I can set aside that hour after dinner to study for work.
- I can practice my instrument for 15 mins a day, after studying.
- On the weekends I can do study music.
- I can aim to be studying for work 3x a week.
And that’s a simple plan.
And now, three weeks into the New Year, I’ve stuck to the 3x a week gym attendance regime for a 6 weeks. Getting up at 7am is an established thing now, preparing breakfast and lunch in the evening is bedding in. It’s going to be OK.
*some strong advice perfectly summed-up by BJC. Thank you Barry.
So here it is, the final installment. The closing chapter of a year-long work. This album is the fourth phase, the Autumn section, from August to October 2016.
I’m quite satisfied with this collection; I came up with some songs that are amongst the strongest I’ve written but there’re also some experimental tracks that may not be easy listening.
Of the four albums in this cycle, this one has perhaps the fewest unsuccessful pieces and includes the project’s finale song Trenton, New Jersey, of which I’m very proud. Guest vocals on that track from Martin Byrne.
Bonus tracks galore!!
The 2018 re-record, remix & remaster of The Grunderhunter!!
Experimental soundworlds The Skittering and Handmade Arpeggio!
And from WeeklyBeats2016, the Lovecraft inspired They Return to Claim What is Theirs and instrumental guitar piece Loaded Dice!
Hey people! I’ve released the third album my Song a Week for a Year series, this one entitled Summer. It’s a quarterly theme!
You can click below and listen for free!
Well friends I’ve finished compiling all the details and here it is, the second part of my Year of Songs project. This album covers the period from the 31st of January until the 24th of April 2016. It has some successes, like Blind (Instrumental) and Quenelles, a Trio (this is possibly my favourite from the whole year), but also has the first couple of proper failures where I was reaching for something that I genuinely could not achieve at the time. Still – it was a learning experience!
It’s available to buy or to stream for free over on Bandcamp!
SAWFAY II – Spring
Happy listening and have a great weekend!
I’ve released an album, it’s the first of four that I’ll be kicking out into the world over the next two months. This one is Part I – Winter.
Life to me mostly seems like how it might be for a cat with a spinal injury, except in that nobody thinks I’m cute as I struggle to do the basic things that everyone else appears to do with ease.
It’s a shame to feel so jaded.